Academic evaluation is a bitch. The problem of grades, of what to grade and how to grade it, is the permanent affliction of academia. Even in a class whose subject presents clear problems with clear solutions, where the ability to demonstrate material competence is unproblematic, the decision an educator or an institution makes of what exactly to evaluate and how exactly to evaluate it introduces the prejudice of arbitrary decisions and subjectivity. And how much greater, how much clearer is the problem in classes of greater artfulness, of greater creativity and creation, of greater reflection. Some radical institutions have tried to do away with grading entirely; my own little college, by recording grades unceremoniously into a computer, yields to the artificial but more-or-less efficacious necessities of admission to other institutions, to demands for documents to prove and to benchmark ineloquently and without precision; but those grades are not reported to students, who must fill out a form to view them, and the primary evaluations are presented to students orally by their teachers.

I did not come to Mississippi to attend graduate school; I came to teach, to be helpful, to know the South. I am nevertheless enrolled in the School of Education at the University of Mississippi, and my performance in a curriculum culminating in a master’s degree must, of course, be evaluated. I do not envy the School of Education, its dean or its teachers, for this task. Nevertheless, their performance at this task is my single greatest annoyance and complaint with the program I have entered (my not being here primarily for the degree precludes bitterness, but not annoyance). I do not know whether it is endemic to the department or peculiar to the program, but in either case I am faced with a blind, unwavering, pig-headed fidelity to the notion of objectivity, which here, of course, is a joke.

I do not mean to deny the possibility of objectivity in the abstract, or to entertain absurdities about teaching being impossible to evaluate. Of course there are good teachers and bad teachers, great ones and lousy ones, and some significant possibility for rather broad agreement about which are which. But assigning them scores on a 100-point scale with a 20-point rubric and expecting that a 93 presents a real and substantial difference from an 88, or even a 76, is a particular kind of lunacy, and it misunderstands, I think, something very basic about what it wants to do.

I made my peace with subjective grading a long time ago. Sure, it stinks. All right. And that’s why unthinking or desperate educators invented the formulaic five-paragraph essay (or, hell, the formalized definition of the paragraph itself), which is not more expressive or beautiful (usually less, in fact) but is more easily and consistently evaluated, and which thereby makes young people not into students of the Liberal Arts or of the humane or of themselves or even of their world, but into students of standardized tests; and which is perhaps why (or is a contributing reason that) education has almost entirely ceased to be education, becoming instead training for evaluations of arbitrary or somewhat arbitrary content memorization, leading eventually to different levels of job training. The monomaniacal pursuit of objective evaluation is destructive of real education. Objectively evaluatable pursuits, or at least those pursuits that are easily and consistently objectively evaluatable, are usually the least interesting, the least insightful, the least enlightening, the least lovely, the least worthwhile, and certainly the least worthy of the dignity of the name “education.” And all those minutes spent studying the test are minutes wasted, minutes spent learning how to be evaluated, learning how to fill out the form (be it a multiple-choice bubble form or a five-paragraph essay form or an STAI lesson plan form), learning what will be evaluated and how; those minutes remind the student that he is studying for a score, that he is playing a game, and that the goal is not self-cultivation but winning; they pervert the education of the students who are good at this empty game, and they discourage the students who are bad at it from pursuing education at all.

Performance in education, the question of whether someone is becoming more educated, is fundamentally subjective, and is only answerable subjectively. Even objective evaluations of a student’s ability to solve mathematical problems and perform drills, while themselves objective, reflect implicit subjective decisions about relative importance and do not necessarily correlate with education (how many students who can perform calculus drills all day really understand or appreciate the calculus?). Its being subjective does not mean that it is not real, or that it is not absolute, or that it is not knowable or even evaluatable. But any “objective” system of evaluation, any contrivance that allows very precise rather than very broad gradations and that allows those gradations the conceit of reflecting anything real, is a ruse.

So how do you evaluate and assign grades to student-teachers? I don’t know. You do it subjectively, though, however you do it; and the extent to which you pretend to do it objectively is the extent to which you are evaluating nothing, or are evaluating the ability to learn and adjust to the system of evaluation.

There is a manifest absurdity in a rubric that assigns the same weight to the important and fundamentally subjective “classroom management” and to, say, writing the date on the board. Some people have defended the absurdity by calling the latter “free points,” but I do not see how they can defend the existence of “free points” while also maintaining the conceit of objectively evaluating something real. There should be no “free points” in any evaluation system at all; least of all should they exist in a system that objectively evaluates something real. What the “free points” serve to do is minimize the influence of the fundamentally subjective: there’s nothing subjective about writing the date on the board, so you can’t contest that; now the fundamentally subjective “classroom management” has a smaller influence on your overall grade. If we bloat the rubric with arbitrary and mostly meaningless requirements, we effect the air of an intricate and calculated system while minimizing the role of subjective judgment (which, of course, is the only judgment, since judgment requires a subject-judge).

But the subjective is still in there, and the numerousness of graded items encourages a kind of carelessness in the precision of each: with 20 five-point items less care is allowed to each small distinction than would be given on rubric of only three or five items. This teacher’s classroom management was good, it presents no obvious suggestions for improvement, but is it worth four points or five? With nineteen similar questions I reflect less on the subtlety than I would if there were fewer, and the evaluation risks becoming more, not less, haphazard. And how likely is it that a given evaluator, for no conscious fault of her own, would reach more readily for fives when evaluating women, fours when evaluating men? Or vice versa? Or when evaluating pretty or plain teachers, or tall or short ones? Such unconscious prejudice is inescapable, surely, but is it more likely when evaluations are performed simply on simple (though subjective) criteria, or when they are complex on very numerous criteria?

Having seen many of my colleagues teach, and having heard some talk of grades, I find no consistent and substantial correlation between evaluation and quality of teaching, and I suspect that while some reflection of our teaching does exist in our grades, it exists primarily in those very subjective parts that make the formulators of the system so uncomfortable; and unfortunately the greater part of the grade reflects our quickness in adapting to the grading system.

July 24, 2005 · Education, Teachering · (No comments)


A few years ago an alumnus of Teach for America founded the Sunflower County Freedom Project, “an independent non-profit organization dedicated to educational excellence and leadership development in Sunflower County, Mississippi” (not to be confused with the similarly-named Republican PAC). For an annual tuition of $300 the youth of this poor Delta county receive regular academic tutoring, weekend classes, a network of mentors, martial arts training, summer courses at the University of Mississippi, educational travel, and membership in a mutually supportive community of learning. Last week a group of three participants in the program spoke to me and other members of the Mississippi Teacher Corps, and the same evening performed an original play on the life of Delta civil rights activist Fanny Lou Hamer.

My first awareness of their program left me suspicious of it: they wear matching shirts, they tend to speak in a shared jargon (the older ones fluent and rapid in it, the younger ones tending toward downward gazing and stutters), they ride together in marked vans and try to recruit members and solicit donations. Even after a somewhat deeper acquaintance they continue to evoke for me at least the likeness of Evangelical youth groups, or itinerant religious cults. The older ones, or the older ones who are put forward as representatives, have the sort of nimble delivery and glib certainty of self and purpose that I associate most with Mormon missionaries.

But aren’t they, after all, an after-school program? And who wouldn’t support an after-school program? As such a small program in such a poor region, with no tax-payer support, they do need to solicit donations. And shouldn’t they try recruiting members? To share the benefits of intellectual and physical cultivation? Won’t I, as a teacher, be similarly attempting to recruit members to the world of thoughtful and reflective living? But the suspicion remains, perhaps for fault of its depth in me. Is it totally superficial, a learned reaction to evangelizing? But again, as a teacher am I not a kind of evangelical? Or for that matter as a believer in the importance of the Liberal Arts?

Their afternoon presentation left me no less ambivalent. We asked them if they felt they had a positive influence on their peers outside of the program, or if they were teased, or what their friends thought of their participation. Their answers were typically strong and self-affirming though as trite and rehearsed as one might expect from adolescents (“I don’t care what anybody else thinks, they’re just jealous,” etc.), but the most telling insight was that they tend not to have any friends outside of the program. And we would expect them not to, wouldn’t we? They cultivate their minds and bodies while their peers outside of the program are the vulgar, the plebian, the Philistine, the youths whose pregnancy rates and incarceration rates and dropout rates are among the highest in the nation and who in a few weeks will fill my classroom and those of my MTC and TFA colleagues. They can all be recruited, of course, but without a shared dedication to learning and self-improvement, is it fair to expect deep bonds? Surely such separation from the world is a commonplace for religions and to be fair is commonplace for all of us and our little societies and cultures.

The program seems to focus heavily on admission to college, and one of its stated goals is that its participants will go to the college of their choice on scholarship. And I wonder how many of the participants would not otherwise go to college, or would go only with much greater struggle. The Sunflower County Freedom Project deserves praise for this assistance. I was uncomfortable, though, with how much the kids in their program talked about college, and with the hallowed tones they used when talking about it. Maybe the program is responsible for neither, and they spoke only as all eager teenagers do, but I wondered how deep a sense of completion these kids would feel upon arrival at the college of their choice, and what they would do after that sense dissipated. Would they be done? Done with anything? I do not aim to demean higher education, or the achievement it is to convince kids in the Delta to invest themselves in it as a personal goal, but can it perhaps be too deeply revered? Too heavily emphasized? I might not have thought so, and maybe I was prejudiced by my impression of evangelical religiosity, but they spoke of college in tones that sounded to me like they were talking about the sweet hereafter. Can’t the emphasis be on education for its own sake rather than education in order to go to college on scholarship and escape the Delta? Wouldn’t it be less artificial, less a prelude to anticlimax, to emphasize living a decent and humane and reflective life, whether in the Delta, at college, or doing whatever one decides to do and wherever one decides to do it? Maybe, as I said, the extraordinary focus on college was more the ordinary focus of kids about to start their applications, and not the focus of the program. And even if it is the focus of the program, maybe getting Delta kids into college is noble enough a goal.

I am returned to a question I keep finding in Mississippi: what is success for the Delta? I am told that the population in many parts is shrinking though the birth rate is very high. Organizations and governments continue to throw money into it and the people who benefit usually move out of it. Will the final success of the Delta be its becoming empty? The three Freedom Project kids who spoke to us said that they wanted to attend college outside of Mississippi. I asked them whether they thought they’d ever return to the Delta and the nearest answer to “yes” came from one who said he might return for a while, and that even if he didn’t return he would like to contribute money to programs like the Sunflower County Freedom Project. So is the program contributing to the Delta by helping to empty it? Is it a training station for the world outside of the Delta, which begins with social separation and ends with university admissions?

It must be said that the program does instill participants with a knowledge and respect for the civil rights movement and for the cultural contributions of the Delta, maybe with a pride in the Delta and sentimentality for it and its history. So at least they will love the place while they try to escape from it.

The evening performance was very impressive to me. The kids told us about their studies, they demonstrated Tae Kwon Do, they recited poetry from memory and performed a play. There was nothing sinister in it. Maybe the program is something like a religion, and my feelings reflect the likeness: it gives them a place to go and an idea to center themselves; maybe it allows them to realize their smallness and even to acknowledge it ceremonially, and thereby to participate in bigness; it cultivates them and ennobles them; and maybe it also engages in some sort of foolishness, creates some dogma or unrealistic expectations. I am not converted, but there is surely some beauty in it. I liked the kids and was impressed by them, and saw the good the program has given them, and I hope they all succeed and that they either escape the Delta without regret or return to it with determination. I did buy their tee-shirt.



I don’t know if this entry was due at midnight or by morning, but I hope for the latter since I slept all day (after traveling all weekend) and am now doing the day’s work in the small hours.

So I watched a second videotaped lesson, this one delivered to my colleagues and a “veteran teacher” rather than real students, since real students in most of the Northern Hemisphere are on break. My first observation, again, is of the sound of my voice, or of my uncomfortable reaction to the sound of my voice. That reaction is tempered this time by a greater expectation of it, and by the several compliments I’ve received about my voice in the elapsed time (and even, I suppose, the memories those compliments stimulated of similar compliments in the past). But since these compliments usually follow my reading aloud of some poem or poetic prose, I am inclined to believe that they specifically target something of my delivery, of pacing and emphasis and so forth, and do not speak to what is so offensive to my own ear: namely, the timbre itself, the very sound my tongue and throat interact to produce. It is perhaps not the most helpful self-criticism, since I can think of no reasonable remedy (if you consider surgery or thousands of cigarettes unreasonable). It does, at least, invite me to reflect on the strange chasm that separates the ego from the world, or (what I take to be) myself from my students.

I see that I walk around a lot, no doubt at the urging of so many evaluators, but I do it with neither elegance nor grace, not even with clarity of purpose. I am not convinced – not deeply, anyway – of the certainty of value in aimless pacing, and in fact received compliments precisely for my not doing that, for being comfortable where I stood, while so many of my colleagues paced like cats in cages. Nevertheless, it’s an easy and inoffensive criticism, so almost every evaluator seems to make it of almost every evaluated, and here I can make it of myself since my walking was ineffective. On the tape I appeared to walk without aim, without gravity. It does seem to me, however many or few of our instructors would agree, that being anchored authoritatively is preferable to weightless, directionless floating, which is how we uninitiated act on exhortations to “walk around the room.” So I will continue to walk, but I will aim to do it with purpose, to know where I am standing and how I will go, and not to move because I’m afraid of motionlessness (perhaps even standing still should be a kind of motion). Again, this observation implies that teachers are performers, and that their motions should be the motions of performers, easy but calculated, bearing weight but not rigidity.

I talk to the board, for which reason I have since employed an overhead projector. It makes a difference immediately, and I think I handle it well.

I have spoken to many of my peers about their experiences after watching themselves on tape, and I have read many of their blogs (including those for whose live performances I was present) and I’ve lost some faith in the fidelity of the impartial camera machine. Maybe it does have a kind of perspective after all, with which it prejudices all objects impartially with ugliness. Or is it we who project the ugliness onto recordings of ourselves though not onto ourselves the rest of the time? Or is it both?: the machine makes almost perfect but slightly uglier likenesses, which for the subtlety of their perversion disturb us so much more, like robots that are recognizably inhuman but human enough to be creepy.

Whatever the images of things do to the things themselves, I learned something worthwhile from the experience of them, mostly by the shock of the disparity (and the subsequent sustained awareness of the disparity). I am not optimistic that there is much more to glean from the tapes, however, since I no longer trust that they faithfully represent the experience of being in the room (have VHS tapes ever faithfully represented any experience?), and thankfully I will not be teaching students by videocassette.

July 19, 2005 · Teachering · 1 comment


The tie goes outside the seat-belt.

July 7, 2005 · Teachering · 2 comments


My impression of student teaching this last month is rather different than Jess’s, though not wholly different (and I suspect that her concern for our morale is as unnecessary in the other two cases as it is in mine).

There is the problem, of course, of not being the real teacher. We know it and the kids know it and the real teacher knows it, and even when the real teacher is only very slightly real-er, the magnitude of the difference is immaterial. The distinction is binary: real teacher, not real teacher.

We were inclined to be friendlier with the kids than we might otherwise be, certainly less formal. Discipline tended to be more relaxed as consistency was so much more difficult. I felt more like a special tutor than a teacher, especially when we broke into small groups, though that time was clearly the most beneficial for the kids, and clearly made the best use of us (it was the least like what we’ll do in the fall).

The problem of summer school, which I think must be universally acknowledged, is that these kids are kept in the same room with the same subject and the same group for eight hours a day. Our room didn’t have windows. It was always either too hot or too cold, and we could not control the air conditioning. They had a 20-minute lunch and a 7-minute break. Summer school is a punishment for the kids who failed; it is not an opportunity to do again what was done too poorly during the academic year.

The experience was good exposure to the problems of teaching (particularly teaching to a combined group of high-, low-, and non-achievers), and of some particular problems of teaching English in a place like where I will be teaching it (where the kids all have impeccable handwriting but many can barely read). It was good to build confidence at standing before a group. It was good to have first-time jitters so that entering a class in the fall will present only something-after-first-time jitters.

I learned about teaching, and about kids, and about these kids, and about people, from specific instances of specific events, like what Jess is talking about when she says that the teacher “humiliated” a student (in that teacher’s defense, she was shaken, and frustrated, and upset, and didn’t know what to do, and asked us afterward what we thought about it, and whether we thought she did the right thing). What the teacher did was ask a student to leave the class or to apologize, which might have been a mistake, and which public confrontation is certainly not the pedagogical fashion according to our books and instruction. But it was, better or worse, a gripping and troubling and touching and deeply illustrative drama. The student would not apologize, and kept repeating in slow and extended syllables “that’s hard, that’s hard” as he angrily packed his things to leave, understanding that he would be leaving summer school and that he would fail and that since he was going to be a senior and would be lacking a required class he might not graduate high school on time or at all. But losing in a confrontation was that expensive to him. And the class erupted into pleas for him to apologize, just apologize, there are only two days left, just apologize. They all seemed to care very genuinely. They knew he was simmering and wanted him to cool down, not to throw anything away in a huff. And he asked if he could apologize after class rather than apologizing in front of everyone, which was an incredible sort of bargaining I thought, because he was willing to apologize and even for everyone to know that he apologized, but he thought it so much better if he didn’t have to do it just then, and if they didn’t all have to see it. I don’t think the teacher had time to consider the offer before he relented and blurted out, “Imsorry” with his hands in the air, resigned, and she was eager to move on, somewhat uncomfortable. She took him aside later to talk to him privately, which is maybe where the whole exchange should have occurred, but I’m not convinced that it would have been easy to manage that without kicking somebody out of class.

Whatever the Perfect Teacher would have done, I’m glad to have seen all of this. I was moved by it, and saw more deeply.

July 5, 2005 · Teachering · 2 comments