The literacy level of my students, as I was repeatedly warned, is low. Some of them can hardly read, in fact. I teach one class of honors students (and it was only on the morning of the first day of school that I learned I would teach this class), and in so many ways they are wonderful; but even they, who are able to read, overwhelmingly do not. I had all of my students fill out a questionnaire on the first day, and one of the questions asked the title of their favorite book. I plan to post some statistics gathered from those forms later; for now I will say that hardly anybody answered that question.

We have Prentice Hall Literature textbooks, which contain a diverse assortment of short texts and excerpts from longer texts, and, in the back, the complete text of Shakespeare’s Julius Caesar. We just got copies in my classroom, and we haven’t started using them yet. I am hopeful though I am afraid that most of the texts in the book will be beyond the capabilities of many of my students.

But my honors class! From the moment I learned that I would have an honors class I was determined, absolutely determined, to have them read books, actual books — novels and poetry that are not subject to the indignity of presentation as units in a textbook. I inherited a classroom with twenty-some copies of Paradise Lost, apparently never touched. It is an exciting thing to inherit, and I don’t know why they were purchased if not to be read. I worry that even the honors students will have such a difficult time with it that they will hate it, so though I am excited to have the book I want to wait until the second semester and gauge ability before issuing copies.

I believed that I needed to find out what books we have available to us, and to choose from among them the book with which we will start. I believed that most high schools had some sort of book room, filled with student copies of the typical high school fare. I learned that we don’t have such a room at North Panola, that we have a cabinet in the library. It was not an encouraging development, but I went to the library to see the cabinet.

First, the cabinet is filled with junk: plastic bags and fabric and styrofoam and gauze and bulletin-board border and so on. The books are piled on top of and behind each other so that it takes some time to unload enough of the shelves to see what they hold. And almost every book there is there in between six and twelve copies.

What the hell do you do with ten copies of The Catcher in the Rye? So far are we from having enough copies of a book to issue to every sophomore, we hardly have any books in sufficient numbers to issue one to every member of one class period. I guess they just don’t ordinarily read books here.

Now, one of my internal conflicts has been between literature whose subject more immediately grabs particular students and literature that is somewhat less immediately accessible to them but which is deep enough and rich enough and subtle enough to warrant exposure despite the inherent challenges. Where is the balance between Milton and Shakespeare on the one hand and J.D. Salinger and Langston Hughes on the other? My students all know a bit about Langston Hughes. What little experience they have of Shakespeare is recalled as unpleasant.

Surely these kids who do not read need to be seduced to reading, and such seduction is far harder to effect with those allegedly dead white men. But I am nagged by a sense that for all the goodness of many 20th century writers, a Homer or a Shakespeare is such a rare and extraordinary appearance, and what a shame to educate so shallowly within the limits of one century. The conflict is eased somewhat by the reality of illiteracy here, and by the resultant awareness that my choices are sharply limited with most of my students. But, again, the honors class! How do I seduce them to the side of literature without doing them the injustice of entirely avoiding that vast and great literature incidentally produced by the dead white male?

I decided that we ought to start with Ralph Ellison‘s Invisible Man. Ellison is an African-American writer from the last hundred years writing about African-Americans in the last hundred years. So maybe there’s fertile soil for literary seduction. And it’s also, by my judgment, a richer and subtler and more challenging book than most on the typical high school canon. And our book cabinet has nineteen hardly touched copies. Unfortunately I have twenty-one honors students, and my own copy is probably lost in California somewhere. So I call the Sardis Public Library. It’s a public library in a black-majority town; surely they’ll have half a dozen copies of Ellison. But it turns out they have one copy. Happily, they can get one more from the Batesville library, ten miles south. So my students are taken care of. I still need one for myself.

I learn that there is a bookstore in Batesville. Apart from the adjacent Christian bookstore, it’s the only bookstore in Panola County. It’s in a small strip mall along with clothing outlets and craft stores, like one would find anywhere in suburban America. It looks very clean and sterile, like a large chain. Surely they have a copy or two. But no. They seem never to have heard of it. So I drive to the next nearest bookstore (actually among the finest bookstores I’ve ever visited, Square Books), which is all the way back in Oxford. Of course they have it there, in that great town. They have it in abundance.

I live in the United States of America, in a part with a black majority, and I need to drive seventy miles round-trip to buy the nearest single copy of Ellison.

(As an aside: it costs almost $30 to fill the tank on my Ford Escort.)



The Mississippi Teacher Corps summer training included some warnings about confrontations with students and physically threatening situations, all of them as I recall centered in the classroom; and there was surprisingly little talk of the effect on these situations or on the classroom environment of being, in most cases, the only white person (or Asian person, or. . .) in the room.

In these first three weeks I have generally felt no substantial effect of my whiteness in the classroom. A few students have made small jokes about whiteness or blackness, but I have always had the impression that they would have been hardly less likely to make them with a black teacher. Almost all of my classes have at some point become briefly distracted by questions of my race, students abruptly changing the subject from, say, transitive and intransitive verbs, to asking bluntly, “What race are you?” or sometimes something more subtle to the same effect. One class insisted that I didn’t look American, and one student in it continually asserts that I must be from Paris (still further, that I look like a magician from Paris — what her experience could be of Parisian magicians in rural Mississippi I am not able to guess). Many students have squared me away as Spanish, and at least as many as “Middle Eastern,” which they most often interpret, quite simply, as “Iraqi.” (I have been so questioned elsewhere, and the usual identifications are Spanish and Jewish — both at least somewhat correct — and I suppose my students might be making the same identifications from within a more limited framework.) I have usually not felt that my students perceived the racial segregation and politics here so acutely as I have, or at least that they were so unsurprised by them that they seemed not to notice anymore.

Friday night was the first football game, and all faculty were “on duty” and assigned to posts. I was standing for the whole game at the gate on the visiting team’s end. The team we played had maybe one or two black players, and one black cheerleader; all others were white. Virtually everyone whose ticket I took was white. The other side of the field was all black. I knew that these games happen, but actually seeing a football team of whites lined up against a football team of blacks, their families and friends cheering on their respective sides of the field — and two separate gates for their entry! … somehow my knowledge that it happens left me no less surprised to see that it actually does. Maybe it happens everywhere to one degree or another. It was actually my first high school football game.

I was not sure if the faculty was supposed to stay for the whole game, and there was nobody nearby for me to ask, so I stayed. When the game ended and I began the walk to the other side of the field, toward the school and the parking lot and my car, I saw few teachers, and assumed most had left toward the end of the game. Many of my students saw me and said hello, wished me a good weekend. One commented that I must be tired. (It was 10:30pm, and I had been on campus since 6:45am; I was still wearing a tie; and though nobody else knew it, because of the chance load of my schedule that day I hadn’t even eaten anything since dinner the previous night.)

As I got to the front parking lot the crowd was a bit rowdier. I noticed for the first time since I’ve been in Mississippi that I was the only white person. I put the thought out of my mind, taking it to be an unseemly one. It was dark, and I thought I heard someone shouting, “Mr. Pollack,” as several of my students had just done on the other side of the building before friendly exchanges of greetings. I turned in the direction of the call, and saw a group of maybe four or six teenagers, but they weren’t looking toward me and I thought I might have imagined my name. I reached my car, unlocked it, and opened the door, and heard from the same direction my name again, this time followed with, “Get your white ass outta here,” and “Go back to Iraq.” I shook my head and continued into my car, put on my seat belt, turned the key, and put it in reverse. After backing out of my space and turning the wheel, as I was shifting into drive but before the gear was engaged, I see these kids running up behind my car, covering their faces with hats and t-shirts. I hesitate before pulling forward and they start banging on the back of my car. I begin to pull forward and they run away laughing.

It occurs to me that banging on the back of somebody’s car could be quite light-hearted, though obscuring one’s face as one does it makes the act rather more threatening. I am sure these kids were in my fifth or sixth period class, or perhaps a few from each, though I’m not sure who they were. I am somewhat sure, maybe 80% sure, that I know who one of them was, the one who seemed to be the ring-leader, but I am not sure enough.

There were cops just around the corner. I was probably not ever in actual danger. Nevertheless, I’m not sure how to feel about the encounter. At the time I wanted nothing else but to eat something and go to sleep, and would entertain thoughts of no other action. And maybe in a dark and crowded parking lot after a football game it is plainly and always foolish to engage half a dozen apparently hostile people, even if their hostility might not be wholly serious. But I am bothered with the idea that their overtly aggressive gesture was met in their minds with a hasty retreat, that from their view they forced an authority to submit, that they won dominance, and that discipline problems they have already presented to me might now become worse.

August 28, 2005 · Culture, Friction, Teachering · 2 comments


My sitemeter logs, among other things, “referrals,” which are the sites from which visitors to this blog clicked links to arrive here; and it reveals a steady flow of readers who find this blog by doing websearches on “Choctaw Ridge” or “Where is Choctaw Ridge” or similar variations, no doubt curious about the Bobbie Gentry song.

Choctaw Ridge doesn’t turn up on many sites apart from those with Gentry lyrics. It seems to be an archaic description.

August 28, 2005 · Geography, Music, The South · 1 comment


A couple of weekends ago Evan and I went to the Blues festival in Clarksdale. I hesitated before going, concerned that I had too much work to do, but was very pleased when I got there.

We saw Honeyboy Edwards, the 90-year-old bluesman who knew Robert Johnson and was present when he died. (I am told that it is his account of Johnson’s death that is widely considered most credible.) He sounded quite like I would have imagined, playing acoustic Blues as a man who played it when all Blues was acoustic.

Then last weekend we all reunited for the first time in Oxford. And what a relief, to decompress with my peers who are experiencing similar trials. Or even to chat over drinks with people my age, somewhat hip and somewhat liberal and somewhat well-educated. It sounds ugly and provincial, maybe (if it isn’t too backwards a use of provincial), and I do not mean it to be derogotary to anyone outside of that description, but what a relief it was, ugly relief or not.

August 27, 2005 · Culture, Geography, Music, The South · (No comments)




My blog cannot be accessed from North Panola High School because the State of Mississippi deems it obscene/tasteless.

(Regrettably this is not a special honor: everything hosted on blogspot.com is blocked; but I like the illusion.)

August 16, 2005 · Culture, Teachering · (No comments)